...Hopeless romantic inside...

I am so scared that I didn't know were I begun...

I had a feeling that I will lose everything...

Everything...

In a single second...

I had lots of chances that life have given me...

But I never used them...

Even though they might change my life for good, but I was afraid...

I do not trust people anymore...

I saw so much crap from few...

And those few were the best things ever happened to my life...

But until then, they became the worst things...

I tried to keep moving on and have my own life...

I wanted to think about something that is valuable and important...

My family...

My studies...

They are the reason that I'm living...

They are the thing that is left to me...

I'm still young to be broken...

I had a chance...to heal my heart...

But my heart prevents me...why?

Why is that?

My mind taught me something...

I should go, and this should end...

Because it is not guaranteed that those feelings from both sides are real...nor not...

I hate this feeling...

Though we had that chance to see what we are feeling...we didn't know if one of us can just pull away...

And fake them out...

Sometimes, ignorance remains...but it can't be a good solution...

Either talk, or you will regret later...

You shouldn't ignore...'cause we both know, that it's not the right thing...

Now...

This have taught me not to regret,

Not to cry,

Not to stop from moving on,

Not to see the sky and wait for givens...

Not to watch others fall and hurt myself...

I'm there for others...

My friends...

.My family...

My life...

are waiting for my big move...

To make them feel that I'm different from all the others...

And prove that I'm the one...

One of a kind...



Feja...

In this life.

There's a lot to face and see in this life...

There's a lot to feel and experience in this world...

I've been strong, I've been weak...

I've been angry, I've been pleased...

I've been rude, I've been sweet...

All in one, and I can't deny.

Sometimes, there's a lot to tell...others should be hidden...

I was searching for something, but when I have found it, it faded away...

I was patient, but sometimes it have driven me mad.

I was innocent, but it keeps 'em stabbing my back...

I lived it full, and I lived it empty...

And my journey have started, and I dunno where would it end...

....

My world was only the place that I could escape to, whenever reality has
been so cruel to me...

It gives me that power to clear my thoughts...

Sometimes, I switch off just to daydream, or dream, or live to dream...

It's a usual habit, got used to...

Sometimes, I use my hobbies, sort of a reaction...whenever I feel upset.

Drawing is a habit that's running through my blood...without it I'd be lost...

Piano is my passion...it gives me too much...

Daydreaming, my sweetest thing...I'd rather to be alone while daydreaming...

My friends, my lovers, my family, those are my main concern in life...

I'd sacrifice my whole soul in order to be with them...

My life has been a journey and destiny that my God have given me...

I was truly pleased and blessed, 'cause I've learned much...

And I'm sure that each human got millions of mistakes...

And the humans are designed to make mistakes in order to learn and get them over with...

Huh..

I try my best at least..

How about a different journey?

Would it be cool...?

I'll see...



Feja.